I’d had three major attempts at relationships and three less serious dalliances in between — which unfortunately still made me emotionally spiral. I was focused on having a great New Year — making better choices. All you need is your computer, headphones, a pen, and a blank journal. “I’m gonna get hypnotized from some hip cool young babe over my computer? I visualized the magnetic version of myself and had chats with the worst version of myself, after which we hugged and healed. I was ready to throw myself into the world again, to dip my toe into the stream of life!
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